The
one the Lord loves is the one He chastises. We are all so familiar with this
piece of Scripture, but truthfully when we are on the threshing floor it is
sometimes pretty hard to see the love of God in our situations. I had found myself in a threshing floor
situation over the past couple of weeks. The Lord just would not let me be
about something in my life that He was clearly not pleased with. It seemed a
small enough thing. It really did! It was small enough and had taken root so many
years ago that I had become largely neutral to it in the first place. It was
just the way things were and had been for over thirty years. I couldn’t then
quite figure why it suddenly permeated my consciousness with such intensity. I
would wake up several times a night with this one thing weighing so heavily on
my mind. Situations around me played up and around this issue. God was clearly
speaking and His message was loud and clear – ‘Deal with this NOW!’
one the Lord loves is the one He chastises. We are all so familiar with this
piece of Scripture, but truthfully when we are on the threshing floor it is
sometimes pretty hard to see the love of God in our situations. I had found myself in a threshing floor
situation over the past couple of weeks. The Lord just would not let me be
about something in my life that He was clearly not pleased with. It seemed a
small enough thing. It really did! It was small enough and had taken root so many
years ago that I had become largely neutral to it in the first place. It was
just the way things were and had been for over thirty years. I couldn’t then
quite figure why it suddenly permeated my consciousness with such intensity. I
would wake up several times a night with this one thing weighing so heavily on
my mind. Situations around me played up and around this issue. God was clearly
speaking and His message was loud and clear – ‘Deal with this NOW!’
The
Holy Spirit spoke through my conscience, reminding me that a falsehood, no
matter how much time had elapsed, was still a falsehood. Or lets be more
specific…a lie is a lie! That’s more like it. Let’s call it as it is, sis. You
see I had inherited a lie in my life as a child, and had gotten so used to it
over the years that it had become part of my ‘reality’. God reminded me that I
was now more than old enough to deal with it and set things straight. He
reminded me that He had been more than merciful in not having taken my life
before this time, but that with each passing day that I allowed it to be, I was playing closer still to
fire. ‘Wow, Lord!’ I thought ‘On this little thing?’ His answer was a
resounding YES. He reminded me that His Word says that liars will have their
place in the lake of fire, and that as long as I was not willing to deny this
inherited falsehood, I was staring hell in the face. I tell you what sis, that
was a pretty scary night! I tried to imagine how terrible it would be to end up
in hell for the sake of this ‘little’
thing. You see sis, in the eyes of God, there is no small lie or big lie, no
white lie or black lie. For the Lord to Himself play up on something in my life
that He knew I had become immune to such that I didn’t see the stumbling block
it was in my life, no one needed to tell me that I needed to make restitution.
The urgency with which the Lord also laid this on my heart was not something I
could ignore. To be honest sis, I began to wonder at some point if perhaps my
death was near and the Lord in His infinite mercy was trying to be sure nothing
was standing in the way of me being with Him in the end. Morbid thinking you
say? Perhaps! But this was as real and as intense an experience for me as I
have ever had. Obedience was not in question, regardless of how painful the
process might be. Obedience was a must!
Holy Spirit spoke through my conscience, reminding me that a falsehood, no
matter how much time had elapsed, was still a falsehood. Or lets be more
specific…a lie is a lie! That’s more like it. Let’s call it as it is, sis. You
see I had inherited a lie in my life as a child, and had gotten so used to it
over the years that it had become part of my ‘reality’. God reminded me that I
was now more than old enough to deal with it and set things straight. He
reminded me that He had been more than merciful in not having taken my life
before this time, but that with each passing day that I allowed it to be, I was playing closer still to
fire. ‘Wow, Lord!’ I thought ‘On this little thing?’ His answer was a
resounding YES. He reminded me that His Word says that liars will have their
place in the lake of fire, and that as long as I was not willing to deny this
inherited falsehood, I was staring hell in the face. I tell you what sis, that
was a pretty scary night! I tried to imagine how terrible it would be to end up
in hell for the sake of this ‘little’
thing. You see sis, in the eyes of God, there is no small lie or big lie, no
white lie or black lie. For the Lord to Himself play up on something in my life
that He knew I had become immune to such that I didn’t see the stumbling block
it was in my life, no one needed to tell me that I needed to make restitution.
The urgency with which the Lord also laid this on my heart was not something I
could ignore. To be honest sis, I began to wonder at some point if perhaps my
death was near and the Lord in His infinite mercy was trying to be sure nothing
was standing in the way of me being with Him in the end. Morbid thinking you
say? Perhaps! But this was as real and as intense an experience for me as I
have ever had. Obedience was not in question, regardless of how painful the
process might be. Obedience was a must!
Iwent down on my knees and asked the Lord to forgive me. Regardless of the fact
that I didn’t create this challenge, regardless of it having been foisted on me
as a child by others who thought they had my best interests at heart; I had to
be honest enough to myself to agree with God that I have been old enough for
more than enough years to have dealt with this issue decades ago. I had to be
honest with myself enough to admit that I had put myself into a ‘willful captive’ situation for too many
years without even realizing it. Yes, sis. I was and am so grateful to God that
I am still alive and able to retrace all this. As I prayed, I asked Him to give
me courage for there was and clearly still will be some level of embarrassment
and ridicule that will go along with my making this restitution. Thankfully, I
know, because I know God, that there will also be a lot of love and
understanding and support that will come first from God Himself, and then from
others around me who will admit (even if to themselves) that they have no moral
right to judge me because they know that we are all works-in-progress, trying
to overcome the world and live daily more and more in conformity to our
Father’s image. There are those who – based on having a firsthand experience in
my restitution process, hearing my testimony or by reading this blog, will
themselves be ministered to enough to begin to shine the light on those silent
dark areas in their own lives, finding similar courage to allow the Holy Spirit
do a purifying work in them also.
The
enemy tried to deter me. He tried to convince me of the difficulty of some of
the things I needed to change through this process, trying to play them up as
impossible situations. He tried to bring pride into it: what would people
think? People? What would ‘they’ think??? Ah, but he got it wrong there, sis. I don’t care what people think. I care only what my Lord and Father thinks! So, I refused to back down. I made the choice to lay aside this one weight. I went into in prayer and asked God to help
me, and He did. I was led to a Scripture in 1st Peter 4 v 14 where the Lord said
categorically that it is better to face the abuse and ridicule of man than to
displease and openly disobey God. I chose and still choose to look up, sis. I chose once again to set my eyes on the hill. I chose to keep heaven in view because my deepest
desire is to one day be there with my Lord. I chose to stay focused on the fact
that my Lord has loved me enough to chastise me. I chose and have yielded fully
to His refining process. I know that in the end I will come out of the fire
purer than before. I serve the Potter, and He does not through away clay.
Rather He remolds it into something more beautiful. If the Lord can willingly and
lovingly forgive great failings in our lives and I know this to be truth, how
could the enemy think he could convince me that the Lord wouldn’t come through
for me in this one little thing?
enemy tried to deter me. He tried to convince me of the difficulty of some of
the things I needed to change through this process, trying to play them up as
impossible situations. He tried to bring pride into it: what would people
think? People? What would ‘they’ think??? Ah, but he got it wrong there, sis. I don’t care what people think. I care only what my Lord and Father thinks! So, I refused to back down. I made the choice to lay aside this one weight. I went into in prayer and asked God to help
me, and He did. I was led to a Scripture in 1st Peter 4 v 14 where the Lord said
categorically that it is better to face the abuse and ridicule of man than to
displease and openly disobey God. I chose and still choose to look up, sis. I chose once again to set my eyes on the hill. I chose to keep heaven in view because my deepest
desire is to one day be there with my Lord. I chose to stay focused on the fact
that my Lord has loved me enough to chastise me. I chose and have yielded fully
to His refining process. I know that in the end I will come out of the fire
purer than before. I serve the Potter, and He does not through away clay.
Rather He remolds it into something more beautiful. If the Lord can willingly and
lovingly forgive great failings in our lives and I know this to be truth, how
could the enemy think he could convince me that the Lord wouldn’t come through
for me in this one little thing?
I
prayed and continue to pray: Lord, purify me! Lord, purge everything in
me that does not glorify you! Lord, show me those quiet foxes in my life, those
ones I have even become totally at peace with. Show me those things budding or
which have taken root in my life, but which You didn’t plant. Root them up
completely Lord, in Jesus name! Lord, I choose to keep my eyes on You! Lord, I
choose to live for You alone. Father, please give me the courage to deal with
everything in my life that is unprofitable to life and godliness, anything that
will keep me from making heaven. Lord, as I go through Your refining fire, help
me to remember that it is because You are evolving me into a more glorious me. Regardless of how intense the flames may look Lord, give me strength to go through. Lord, as you chastise me, help me to remember that it is out of Your
unfailingly love for me. Father, I yield everything in my life that does not
glorify You. I lay them at Your feet oh Lord. Wash me! Cleanse me! Create a new
heart and a new spirit within me, Lord. I repent of this one thing…this thing that was so small in my eyes, but which You have loved me enough to prune me of. Lord. I
receive Your forgiveness, grace and mercy, Lord. I’m grateful Father. Thank You
Father. I love You Lord. Blessed be Your holy name, Lord. In Jesus mighty name
I pray, Amen.
prayed and continue to pray: Lord, purify me! Lord, purge everything in
me that does not glorify you! Lord, show me those quiet foxes in my life, those
ones I have even become totally at peace with. Show me those things budding or
which have taken root in my life, but which You didn’t plant. Root them up
completely Lord, in Jesus name! Lord, I choose to keep my eyes on You! Lord, I
choose to live for You alone. Father, please give me the courage to deal with
everything in my life that is unprofitable to life and godliness, anything that
will keep me from making heaven. Lord, as I go through Your refining fire, help
me to remember that it is because You are evolving me into a more glorious me. Regardless of how intense the flames may look Lord, give me strength to go through. Lord, as you chastise me, help me to remember that it is out of Your
unfailingly love for me. Father, I yield everything in my life that does not
glorify You. I lay them at Your feet oh Lord. Wash me! Cleanse me! Create a new
heart and a new spirit within me, Lord. I repent of this one thing…this thing that was so small in my eyes, but which You have loved me enough to prune me of. Lord. I
receive Your forgiveness, grace and mercy, Lord. I’m grateful Father. Thank You
Father. I love You Lord. Blessed be Your holy name, Lord. In Jesus mighty name
I pray, Amen.
Sis, this post is not meant for you to sit back and begin to ask ‘I wonder what she did?’. please dont get it wrong, dont let the enemy distract you from the message to you today. this is call that you please pray and ask God to show you anything in your life that needs to go
through the Refiner’s fire. Don’t be so focused on those ‘big sins’ in your
life that you miss seeing those little ones that could so easily hold you back
from eternity with the Father. I’m so looking forward to heaven sis, and I believe you are too. Please look deep within and see if there is anything
you have gotten to be at ease with over time, but which you know of a truth
does not glorify God. Don’t worry about what men will think or say sis, for we
are all at best fallible. Only God is perfect. We are on a journey to reflect
that perfection, but along the way there is purging, there is pruning, there is
refining. What are those areas of your own life that need to pass through the fire, sis? The Holy Spirit will reveal them to you as you ask. Know
this for certain, God will help us as we call unto Him. So call on to Him sis.
He is helping me through this. And He will surely help you.
through the Refiner’s fire. Don’t be so focused on those ‘big sins’ in your
life that you miss seeing those little ones that could so easily hold you back
from eternity with the Father. I’m so looking forward to heaven sis, and I believe you are too. Please look deep within and see if there is anything
you have gotten to be at ease with over time, but which you know of a truth
does not glorify God. Don’t worry about what men will think or say sis, for we
are all at best fallible. Only God is perfect. We are on a journey to reflect
that perfection, but along the way there is purging, there is pruning, there is
refining. What are those areas of your own life that need to pass through the fire, sis? The Holy Spirit will reveal them to you as you ask. Know
this for certain, God will help us as we call unto Him. So call on to Him sis.
He is helping me through this. And He will surely help you.
Be
blessed sis….for you surely are!
blessed sis….for you surely are!
Thank God for your life. It takes grace(courage) to share such a piece. I clearly identify with you on 1st Peter 4:14.This verse comes to mind each time I'm faced with certain choices. One thing is sure, the end will surely come someday no matter how long it tarrys….then what? The Lord is your strength, the Lord is our strength. God bless you. Amina
Hmmm….right now I feel like God is following me around, this blog is the 2nd reason I have wept this evening. I hv sort of 'been telling the Lord to look away' the more I say it the closer he comes to me and now this blog.I love you Lord .I thank you for this daughter that had the coruage to share this and the sacrifice to see it transform others.shalom.
I always tell myself, as I deal with one 'impurity' after another that though God loves me, he is holy through and through. He will not, for the love he has for me, 'contaminate' heaven. If there is but one speck of impurity in me, he will shut the door in my face, albeit with tears coursing down his face…..why would I let that happen? Why would you?
Thanks for this Audrey. My prayer that this post goes far….that it touches hearts and brings about true repentance in all areas, little and big. For the truth is, with God' there is not degree of sin'
My dear sister, i cannot tell you how much your posts bless me. As i read this one, just one word came to mind – 'courage'. I think it's incredibly courageous to step out like this and obey God in this. We get so caught up in how we appear to others, that it can be nearly impossible for God to get us to move. He is your Defender and the lifter up of your head and this act of obedience will draw you even closer to Him.
Be blessed